I still dont know

So im still not sure yet if I am pregnant.
I cant really believe that I did this.
I never let go and drink like that.
I dont know how 4 beers effected me so much,
because it never has before.
I told Paul and Nick about it.
About what happened.
I really can't recall it all.
I have never gotten that messed up in my life.
I dont understand at all.
But what can I really do about it now.
If I am pregnant I will take care of the baby.
This is my mess up and I need to deal with it.
I know one thing though,
I am never drinking with people I just met,
EVER AGAIN!

I have let Paul go as anything more than my best friend
I asked him to be the God Father
well him and Nick
And I asked Tasha to be the God Mother
I know im not 100 % sure yet but I was emotional and I just asked.
They all said yes.
I told Eric to stay out of my life
no more calling
no more texting
no more stopping by
because it always ends in a fight and me crying
I cant handle him anymore
I really dont want Clint to go to jail
but in less than 6 days that is exactly what is going to happen
I know none of this makes any sense right now
I will explain it better when im not freakin out

I really dont know where to go from here..